If you see this, it means I have quit adding to my queue and I’ve more or less quit tumblr for the time being.

My life recently hasn’t been good for my health, physically or mentally. I’m literally abandoning almost all social media outside of occasionally poking people on FB so that they know I’m alive.

I’m basically going to try and “reinvent” myself in the way I thought I would’ve been. Granted the whole game programming gig didn’t work out, but I have a steady programming job where I’m a valuable member according to everyone else there.

I want to be:

  • Healthy. Not super skinny, not super buff. I want to be able to do a single pull up and be a size 12/14. I also want to eat clean. Eating clean helped me on so many levels during my last college years.
  • Somewhat active. AKA I want to be able to do stuff for more than hour without feeling like I’m going to die.
  • Become housewifey-ish. I want to be able to make my own damn clothes and can food and be a crafty SOB.
  • I want to be myself and quit hiding. Like, I want to quit lying to people about aspects of my life just because it’s not their ideal view of me.

Because of how I am, I literally have to treat myself like a 5 year old and take away things so that I’m forced to do what I need to do. Tumblr is a time suck and I just can’t handle it any more for the time being. Will I come back? Who knows. I’m just going to have to play it by ear.






being a cishet looks boring why do people do that

Idk maybe bc sexuality/gender isnt based on how cool or interesting an individual wants to look

yeah but why be boring when u can be awesome and not cishet

yeah but why treat lgbt+ identities like some trendy fashion accessory that ppl can just slap on to look cool when u could not act like a complete idiot

Gilliam didn’t need to repudiate his relationship with the mainstream film industry, which had pretty much turned its back on him after the commercial failure of “Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas” in 1998 – a movie that looks, in retrospect, like the ultimate distillation of his grotesque and visionary directorial style. Gilliam pioneered the blend of fantasy and dystopian science fiction in the days before CGI, when those things seemed like geeky and bizarre niche interests. Go back and look at the remarkable special effects in another underappreciated box-office flop, “The Adventures of Baron Munchausen,” made in 1988. He was just a few years too early, but his influence is everywhere in contemporary cinema and culture, even as his later career has been a remarkable parade of near-misses and not-quites. Not for nothing is the aging, threadbare rebel leader played by John Hurt in Bong Joon-ho’s “Snowpiercer” named Gilliam!