If you see this, it means I have quit adding to my queue and I’ve more or less quit tumblr for the time being.
My life recently hasn’t been good for my health, physically or mentally. I’m literally abandoning almost all social media outside of occasionally poking people on FB so that they know I’m alive.
I’m basically going to try and “reinvent” myself in the way I thought I would’ve been. Granted the whole game programming gig didn’t work out, but I have a steady programming job where I’m a valuable member according to everyone else there.
I want to be:
- Healthy. Not super skinny, not super buff. I want to be able to do a single pull up and be a size 12/14. I also want to eat clean. Eating clean helped me on so many levels during my last college years.
- Somewhat active. AKA I want to be able to do stuff for more than hour without feeling like I’m going to die.
- Become housewifey-ish. I want to be able to make my own damn clothes and can food and be a crafty SOB.
- I want to be myself and quit hiding. Like, I want to quit lying to people about aspects of my life just because it’s not their ideal view of me.
Because of how I am, I literally have to treat myself like a 5 year old and take away things so that I’m forced to do what I need to do. Tumblr is a time suck and I just can’t handle it any more for the time being. Will I come back? Who knows. I’m just going to have to play it by ear.